Finding my way
Perhaps it’s time to love myself again.
Perhaps it’s time to embrace who I am and forgive my flaws.
Perhaps it’s time to learn.
This is a tough lesson to learn,
So I’ll take it slow,
So here I go.
You are strong.
You can create, and you’re damn good at it.
But those scars carry the remnants of whatever pride I once had
These hands have loved many others,
But now it’s time I use them to love myself.
They’ve held many others,
But now it’s time they hold myself.
You are strong,
You’ve lifted the weight of so much loss
You are getting stronger and stronger every single day
I am so proud of you.
You’ve carried the weight of my entire world
You’re knotted and strained
I don’t know how to take that weight off of you
But I so desperately want to.
I am proud of you
I’ve spent so many years hating you
Hiding you and from you
Since puberty we’ve played an endless game of hide and seek
One that ends next summer
When you leave for good
And I’m sorry.
But at last,
We’ll both be free.
You’ve been so fast
For so many years
You’ve meant freedom
My golden piston legs
You’ve traveled so many miles
Over so many years.
Step after step,
Getting me to where I need to be.
We’ve coexisted for 19 years and counting
Day after day
(Sometimes not so well)
And we’ll be together for many more.
I’m constantly on the look out for my next lover,
When you’ve been here all along.
So I’m declaring you,
My newest lover.
It’ll be hard,
It won’t be easy,
But it’s high time I start loving you.